THIS IS A PUBLIC APOLOGY REGARDING MY ACTIONS TO A CLASSMATE THAT I HAVE DEEPLY HURT AND OFFENDED.
It has been bought to my attention this evening of July 29 that this blog article I posted last July 12, titled “Teaching Methodologies and Why I Want to Stab My Classmate With a Pen” has caused our classmate, Miss ******** ***, to feel concerned and threatened.
I am not going to insult anyone by denying this claim, even though names were not mentioned, and I sincerely apologize for the blog post that caused her this.
Needless it is to say, I posted this in exercise of my freedom of self-expression, with the thought that personal blogs are subject to plenty of exaggeration and a lot of feelings (as in my case), especially negative ones. It did not dawn me that not everyone may think the same way. Blogging has been my outlet for said negativity, and I certainly did not want anyone at all to think I seriously wanted to stab her — literary creativity and personal opinions are not to be acted upon violently.
Furthermore, I have been rallying against bullying for the past couple of years, and I do admit that this is a foot-in-the-mouth moment for me, considering that I caused a classmate to feel unsafe and threatened, her family included.
It has also been bought to my attention that generation gap and environmental and academic upbringing can cause a big difference as far as internet usage and communication is concerned, thereby it is necessary to be careful about posting, especially when it concerns negative feelings and other persons.
Again, this is a heartfelt public apology for Miss *** and her family.
This letter shall also be posted on my blog as per agreement.
I grew up smart — thanks to the fact that I went to good public schools with good teachers.
Apparently, there is a big difference between growing up in a public school as compared to a private institution. Tuition fees and environment aside, I think I prefer the teaching methodologies that we had where the teachers don’t rely on the money that the sky-high tuition pay them for.*
A few days ago, I had a classmate who asked our teacher about the teaching methodologies in the university. “Why are they less student-centered? Why are teachers terrorizing the students in a way that they are afraid to mess up? Why do they treat us like we’re their subordinates, not their students? Why do they make us feel stupid?”
I had to roll my eyes and my seatmates were looking at me, wide-eyed (and laughing) when I made the stabbing actions, psycho-style, with my pen. The thing is, I’ve never had a student-centered education, because with public school, you have to take the initiative to learn.
First off — student-centered teaching methodologies mean spoon-feeding every piece of information to the students, and I don’t know when that ever happened because the last time I had that, I was in Elementary. I think public schools make their students more independent in their studies…keeping us smart. This is Law School: Say Yes to Socratic Teaching (because how else will you be able to develop the mind of a lawyer?)
Being in post-grad, it is actually an honor that the teachers think highly of us — so of course they get pissed when you mess up. You’re supposed to be this, to want this…and if you’re not doing everything in your power to get to that dream, then screw you for wasting their time.
In connection to that, it is also an honor that the teachers are treating us the way that we should be treated — the professionals that we were supposed to be. Because we’re still clawing our way to become lawyers, and they got there, it is understandable that they treat us like we’re at the bottom of the food chain — because that’s what we are. Treating us like –students—children, for that matter— would be an insult to our intelligence, because, yes, we are law students, but we are not children who need to be spoonfed.
So why do I want to stab my classmate with a pen? Because said classmate is married and older and she wants to be treated like she’s three. I don’t know about you, but I will be insulted by that. And it’s infuriating that she had to bring it up during a class discussion, with a teacher.
We’re in post-graduate studies for Pete’s sake, and by damn, if you want a nice, grandmotherly teacher to help you learn and point out everything to you piece by piece, then find one someplace else, because I’m pretty sure you’re not going to find that in law school.
This is what one of my college mentors tweeted awhile ago, and I just found it fitting, so I’m posting it here:
I’m quoting him because he’s right, and it’s true: Or professors have the responsibility to teach, and it is definitely our responsibility to learn, especially if we want to get ahead. Right?
Yeah, you better nod, with gusto. 🙂