Life is never easy for those who dream.
– Robert James Waller
A few years ago, I found myself in a dark place: It was as if nothing was good, and nothing will ever be. It was so dark I thought I lost myself in a battle within me. I felt so helpless and hopeless that I withdrew from everything. My grades in school slipped, my mind wandered to dark places, my friends barely knew who I was, and what has happened to me.I could say that my heart was broken, and maybe, that time, it was. But it wasn’t broken because of a failed relationship, and if that was the case, it wasn’t all of it.
I came to a point when hugs, chocolates and ice cream weren’t enough: crying was the only way I can breathe, and cutting was my form of release. I was in such a dark place, that I felt weak and I wanted to surrender everything. I contemplated on death more than I should have.
The truth is…well, life’s not fair. We are given so many obstacles that sometimes it seems like we can’t handle them anymore. Even if we can, it was too much drama for us to even want to handle them. We just want them to end.
And then one day, the darkness just lifted.
See, I realized that no matter how crazy life gets, there are things that can help you through: Faith, Trust and Love.
Faith doesn’t have to be about a higher power, although in my case, it is one among a few. If you don’t believe in a higher power you can have faith in other things as well.
Faith in your dreams. If you work hard on them enough, they will come true. Your dreams are what you live for. As long as they are alive, there is something worth fighting for. Have faith that you can do what you want to do, and be who you want to be. Have faith that you can go where you want to go. As long as there is a dream you kept alive in your heart, there is always something to look forward to in life.
Trust in yourself.
Trust that you are stronger than you think. There was a time in my life when I thought everything overwhelmed me. I had to be strong, not only for myself, but for someone else too: someone who I love and care about. Taking on all that made me think that I will collapse, that I will break. But I didn’t. The truth is, we never give ourselves enough credit.
If only we trust in ourselves, we realize that we can take on more of the world than we’ll ever know.
Have faith, have trust, and believe in love. Love is all around you if you just care to notice. The truth is, there is always at least one person who will love you all throughout your lifetime. Your family, no matter how much you fight, loves you (Family does not have to be the one you were born it to, it can be the people you choose). Your friends, no matter how much you compete, love you. There may even be a stranger loving you from afar without your knowledge.
There will always be someone who you’ll love the rest of your life as well.
Love. What other reason do you need to fight for your life, if not for love?
You are never going to be alone. You will always be loved.
So when you think life is too tough for you to handle, have faith. Have trust. Have love.
You will make it through.
Lots of Love,